“I’m very, very good at manipulating people and that was something that I did in my disease, I would manipulate everyone around me. There were times I would just continue to lie, so that everything looked OK on the outside,” she told Kit.
In fact, Demi said she went to great lengths when it came to ensuring she could use drugs wherever she was.
“Something I’ve never talked about before, but with my drug use I could hide it to where I would sneak drugs. I couldn’t go without 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes,” she revealed. “I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep and I would do it right there. I’d sneak to the bathroom and I’d do it. That’s how difficult it got and that was even with somebody [with me], I had a sober companion, somebody who was watching me 24/7 and living with me [and] I was able to hide it from them as well.”
Demi’s rock bottom – at just 19 years old – was found at the bottom of a soda bottle.
“I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka and it was just nine in the morning and I was throwing up in the car and this was just to get on a plane to go back to LA to the sober living house that I was staying at…I had all the help in the world, but I didn’t want it,” she said looking back. “When I hit that moment I was like, it’s no longer fun when you’re doing it alone. I’ve really never talked about this stuff before… I don’t know if I should be sharing this.
“I think at 19 years old, I had a moment where I was like, ‘Oh my God… that is alcoholic behavior. [It’s] no longer, I’m young and rebellious and out having fun, it was, wow, I’m one of those people…I gotta get my s*** together,’” she explained.
Demi’s mom, Dianna, also sat down with Kit for the interview, where she recounted dealing with her daughter’s addiction battles.
Selena Gomez, 21, witnessed best friend Demi Lovato, 21, going through thetoughest time of her life in 2010, when she spent three months in rehab for emotional and physical issues at the young age of 18. Selena was there for her friend then, and continues to be, after recently going to listen to Demi speak at a sober living home. Demi reportedly also told the group why Selena is such a good friend.
Demi, who lived in a sober living home for over a year, spoke to a recovery group at a rehab center with Selena by her side for moral support. She told a personal survival story, involving her battles with drugs, alcohol, anorexia, bulimia and cutting herself, according to TMZ.
She also said that it was her mission to surround herself with positive influences, which is why she has Selena as a friend and lived in the sober living home.
Demi has publicly stated before that Selena helped her through her addiction struggles in rehab. “Selena called me crying when I was in there and was just so worried,” Demi told Televisonet.tv. “I was like, ‘Look, I should be the one crying, it’s all good!’
Selena expressed why she always supports her friend of 14 years in i-D‘s August 2013 issue. “I’m very proud of Demi and her being able to accept the challenges she went through,” she said.
Selena also said she admires Demi’s dedication to her fans. Selena calls Demi a “role model” after entering rehab and setting an example for those struggling with addiction.
The 21-year-old X Factor judge is on the right track after a few rough years. The all-grown-up child star has talked publicly about her battle with depression, cutting and bulimia, but her new self-help book, Staying Strong (Feiwel and Friends) is not about all that.
“It’s not the type of thing you read in one sitting,” says Lovato of the book which premieres as No. 1 on the New York Times Bestseller List in the Advice, How To, & Miscellaneous category on Monday. “I feel like I have a long story to tell, but I’m just not ready to write it. This is something else to inspire my fans.”
Staying Strong contains 365 inspirational quotes and passages to basically help anyone get through the day. “We live in a such a fast paced society; we don’t take the time for ourselves,” says Lovato. “If you can just set aside 10 minutes in the morning and read a page, it can really change your outlook, especially if you wake up grumpy or you’re in a crappy mood.”
The former Sonny With A Chance star isn’t only cleansing herself spiritually but physically, too.
“I like to work out and do things for myself — a lot of self-care,” she says. “I see a chiropractor once or twice a week to keep my body aligned. It makes me feel better. I take my vitamins and started eating gluten-free and a lot of organic, even raw food, something I used to laugh at.”
The Skyscraper singer will definitely be getting a workout when she hits the stage at Y100’s Jingle Ball 2013 at the BB&T Center Dec. 20, along with such showbiz pals as Miley Cyrus, Robin Thicke, Austin Mahone, Ariana Grande, Enrique Iglesias, Flo Rida and Jason Derulo.
Don’t ask for a set list yet or even if any collaborative efforts are involved.
“I have so much going on right now that I don’t know,” she says. “I may do a spur of the moment duet or bring a special guest on.” Among those other things going on: Judging The X Factor. On Thursday night, Lovato was dealt a huge blow when the two singers in her category — female solo singers ages 12-24 (Rion Paige and Ellona Santiago) — were eliminated.
Lovato had high hopes for the two.
“Ellona is literally like a little Christina Aguilera with so much charisma and such a powerful voice,” she raved. “And Ryan is so incredibly with such a mature voice.”
Disappointing young talent is tough, and Lovato knows first hand how crushing rejection can be. In the future, would she advise her own daughter to go into showbiz?
“I learned the spotlight probably wasn’t the best thing for me growing up,” the Texan admitted. “It was a confusing time with a lot of pressure. I wish I would have stuck to taking vocal lessons and guitar lessons and researching music.”
But there was an upside.
“When I was bullied and going through horrible depression, the entertainment industry kept me sane and kept me excited and encouraged me to live out my dreams.”
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